Notepad Excerpts

evolution of finger nails

why do we follow a hunch to assume that evolution works towards a certain goal and for a certain reason instead of changes happening randomly? makes no sense, however previous encounters have shown us a solution rising to meet a need, which makes sense. it seems our development of what makes sense is based on what actually happens. we make sense out of what happens, though, and it wouldn't make sense that it was...

Our ability to reason and make sense is important and can't be underappreciated, for it is how we see the universe and for some reason our grasping hand of reason reaches out and grabs at the strong web of the universe, all tied together in a way we CAN grasp! Sense cannot be proven to just be a human response to the layout of the universe, nor can it be all completely coincidence. Everything draws the universe together in some direction. what happens makes sense to us, and we make sense out of what happens. Therefore, sense indicates that there is something out there, some design of things. There has to be a greater power! There IS a greater power to our existence. And it's not just that it can't make sense otherwise, it's because it does make sense and it obviously makes it make sense. Every single thing that happens goes together AND it all makes sense to us. The fact that the universe functions according to laws, things grow and die in similar patterns, and all that, it all gives way to a design. There is an overall design. Things don't just happen randomly, there is order to the universe. You have to look at sense not as grabbing what is there, but as the human need to grab at, find, and take possession of something, some idea to espouse of how to see the universe. But lo, a hand was waiting to greet them and pull against them in brotherhood: the actual fluency of the universe. (To a randomist, they would say "Oh, it just miraculously happened!" The flaws of statisticians who don't believe something because it's not 100% sure end up playing against the odds of something that is at 99% certainty. And the fact that they do it in 50 different cases...come on statisticians, you know those are rotten odds. ) A hand was WAITING for us to grab onto. Just...the fact that everything makes sense to us, that can't just be a human thing. That can't just be our way we coped with the universe, by trying to make sense of it. No, it really does make sense, and we have broken onto the rules of the playing ground. That says something.

Imagine this: that we are tiny beings on one planet of this incredibly huge game that some ellimist is playing and shaping. That's the game, that they create societies, observe them or whatever, and the funny part is these little beings in the game wonder as to their existence. They have feelings! As if I were playing Civ 3 and the little guys I control wonder about the meaning of life. But the catch is that they have such a high level of reasoning that they disregard the pain that they cause us. But we feel that is unfair, and we have to reconcile our inability to be happy with the reality of our situation, and we have to come to terms with this amongst ourselves.
We find all this out through a "new messiah", which is really just an order that this ellimist ordered into the game: that he sends a messiah to earth. the messiah explains to us the reality, that we are in a game, tells them that Jesus was another script (like this guy - but Jesus was simply a program meant to have an effect on this population [earth], and its not really that he was right or wrong...but he was kind of wrong) and the ellimist observed the effect that sending a Jesus had on people. People get scared, unhappy, think what's the point of even going to work, and then some guy realizes how do we know this new guy isn't another script? The catch of the story, for all the skeptics who fail to see a reason for this game (our reality) to exist and for someone to play it, is that it doesn't need to make sense. The world out there (the one that the ellimist lives in) needs not to be anything we could possibly ever understand. That's why we can't see it, and that's why it will never make sense to us, because it is incomprehensible. The story could follow me, in college, as I first hear of this new messiah, and listen to his message. That morning, I had attended a philosophy course on the need and importance of human reasoning, as I had been talking about in the previous chapter, and mulled it over. I hear of this guy but before I hear the message, when I talk to people in person that have heard the message, they are listless and unresponsive and just go home and sleep. I then hear it and it follows me as I think the same things. Whats the point of anything anymore? Business falls apart, crime falls apart, nobody does anything because their whole purpose has been deflated. The humor is the way the new messiah tells it. reporters furtitively ask "so Truth [they ask him his name,he shrugs and says 'eh call me Truth, its not really that important though'], what happens after we die??" And he shrugs and says "eh you basically get recycled. you know, get sorted back into the system." people stand there for a moment, perplexed. Julius explains that people are basically characters in a game. He supposedly tells people like it is, and in the process gives us truths about our existence. People don't come right out and ask if there's a god, but they wonder why everything works out and he explains that it works out because you were designed with the thought ability to make sense out of the laws of the universe. It's basically a fantasy story that supposes we are in a game that some ellimist is playing, he hits a key to send this "truth bearing messiah" who hasn't been here in a while because there are other worlds being cultivated under different circumstances and being observed. He tells us the truth and we become completely demotivated, we stop doing anything. A large part of the story focuses on the day everyone finds out, and they all complain about stuff they thought were important, and everyone confesses to being shallow or ill-prioritzed in a series of rants. Before we get to the point of becoming crazed with hunger, though, word spreads around that maybe this guy, like Jesus, is simply telling us the truth so the ellimists can observe the effect on us. this is essentially the end of the story. after that question is posed, the last scene is three three-second clips of the characters sitting around perplexed.

Truth's laugh at the human race: we place emphasis on why rules exist when instead we are created to understand, observe, and follow these rules. He dismissed philosophy by telling us a very harsh blunt truth and we are left deflated. As a witty ending we could crucify Truth.

first or early scene is 3 kids (me, dan, and ari) and ari tells us how the guy that came out with some technique for synthesizing DNA came up for this formula on acid, he could visualize it. kids talk about drug-induced higher reasoning. this takes place the day before the early morning philosophy class and then the messiah coming.

the kid who this movie follows is very passive and shows little or no reactivity like the kid in waking life.

Order of events:
Kid's monologue
afternoon session stoned with dan and ari
writing a paper for philosophy that night
next morning the class and the professor gives a speech about reasoning
the messiah makes himself clear
all that jazz