Addendum

Spending the last few hours thinking over my last post, I would like to add a couple things:

I do not dismiss the relationships that I do have, I do not mean to say that I do not think they are relationships, or that the people do not mean anything to me. There are many truths out there, and we can use "ugly truths about the universe" to justify just about any negative thought and believe ourselves to be universally right. My goal is when I am with people, to always put myself aside and be the other person. So if I am with you and am negative, please understand that I am trying to get over myself, but it is a struggle to constantly maintain that stance.

I've always felt that we are at our most fulfilled when we are living through something else rather than ourselves. Yes, I said previously that construction of identity indicates an objectification of things that can not be truly objectified, but at the same time living in a state of perpetual lack of identity makes one constantly think about themself. It's really only when a person is focused on something outside of their self that they are not thinking about their self-critically, and it is during those times that a person defines themself by what they are doing, not by how they see theirself. Trying to define yourself as an "American", rather than "running" or channeling another person in conversation, is a silly cop-out, and I do not plan on contradicting that.

I don't know any true atheists who are truly happy, and that is really because when you eliminate the idea of something outside of yourself, you are making yourself your temple. And no good ever comes from continuous self-speculation. So...yeah.